Do you miss me?
(Thursday, 12 July 2012 @ 22:15)
"Have you ever been so upset you just completely broke down alone by yourself? Your parents can’t tell and nor can your friends because you hide it behind a smile. You know you’re not okay. Yet again, no one knows how you feel and you don’t bother telling them because they have their own lives to deal with. So you store all your problems, all your sorrow, all your tears, all your hurt and all your pain. You’ll take it out some other day, but not today.. Today’s not the day. Because here’s to the nights you dealt with more than you bargained for. All those sleepless nights crying so hard you couldn’t breathe. To the nights you couldn’t wait till everybody grew up because you were sick of them judging you. To all those nights you wished things would just get better. To all those good nights that turned to bad. To all those nights you wished you were older. To those nights that unfortunately came too soon"
Today was a shit day, I'm not kidding. Irony how you feel so a l o n e even when you're with a big crowd of people, that feeling sucks really. But no matter what, I still have to face it anyway. All the thoughts and questions at the back of my head, without explanations or answers:
People say if it's meant to be it will be. But I think if you have the chance, grab it.
I mean, what if it really is meant to be, but it comes in a different approach and life just wants you to make the choices right and make those who are worth it stay? Like, even if it was meant to be and you don't take the chances that are given to you, and nobody takes the first step, there wouldn't even be a fire without a spark. If you know he's really meant to be, but he's just within the crowd, yet you don't want to do anything about it. I guess then really,
meant to be is just an excuse. Let nature take its course? What can nature do? Even if you meet the guy you love so much on the streets 2 years down the road, what makes you so sure you'd approach him? Life is all about chances, if you don't take it, you'll miss it, and maybe regret for life.
That sounded really crazy, but honestly:
Life is all about chances, grab every single one of them you have.
"Don't ever give up on something or someone that you can't go a full day without thinking about. It's worth it. " But I can understand why you've completely given up; I know how much you hate me now. Well but, if something has always been failing, don't give up, be happy you've found the other 1001 ways that would not work.
This ^, but people get tired, really. So it isn't a good idea anyway; pushing them away.
I'm still waiting for you, for any chance that you would come back, but the chances are slim, or maybe no chance at all. Maybe it's really time to let it go. But if you still came back and asked for everything, I would give the world to you, no hesitations. Although I hear a lot of negative things about you... I can't seem to hate you for your actions, because no matter what you do, no matter how much you hurt me, the fact that I love you will never ever change. I love you always. You're impossible to forget.
Everything I do, reminds me of you. Do you miss me, at all?
Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe things happen for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
"And once upon a time, I had thought I was 'someone' to you but I must have been a fool."
My form teacher has been a rly good person to confide in. :) I love my form teacher so so so so so so much. :')
and my greatest motivation to carry on:
It
definitely will be better. :)
