I'll be waiting for you.
(Saturday, 30 June 2012 @ 20:15)
"Im just tired of feeling like a failure"
but I will try.
I don't want to end up like her, but I've done so many things wrong, and even if you end up not coming back, I only have myself to blame.Right now before you make your decision I have to #1) take care of myself #2) get well and not cough anymore #3) not call you.
If your decision is a negative one then I've no reason to take care of myself anymore. And if your decision is positive I'll just do #1.
I'll just have to remember that I brought myself into this and it's good that he would try to trust me again. Today my mum asked me why my face no chubby liaoz, lul.
^ so cute.
so effortlessly.
yes this, although we fight but I guess that's just part of an obstacle that we have to pass. and this is just another one, I honestly believe that he would come back when he stops thinking of the past because what he does all just still shows he cares. but its not easy lah. although he cares but.. yeah doesn't mean he would return. I know that clearer than anyone else so I'm not gonna hold my hopes too high.. if he still wants us he would come back and we would be together because I'm always his. I swear I'm not gonna love anymore. If this doesn't work I don't see any hope anymore. 415 days, and it still ends. this 4th, I'm not gonna get anymore surprise. well, kinda sad but.. :/ I can't force things to go my way, I only can wait and hope for the best.Glad you're still rather protective and all, but okay.. I shall not think too much.
But remember this is a once in a lifetime love, alright? you'd always be my baby. don't think I'll ever recover from this. sigh, I love you boy.
Sigh I can't control my tears in class this week and then stupid people like jeremy go and ask him "why you make her cry" UGH your problem ah I know you very well is it -.- then end up my fault but I tried to hide it as far as possible its just that teachers come in and gotta greet them right sigh.
the vans I want if I don't get the neon threaded oneeee.
meh don't know when I'd get my shoes :(
the only thing thats coming in between you and me, is reality.
got this whole chunk of shit from tumblr but. uP is so cute :(
