I want you forever,
forever and always
you're gone
and suddenly everything feels wrong

Jiahui L. September baby. Once a Hildan, always a Hildan. :)
04052011; Superman's. And he's the best thing about me ♥. :)


& I honestly don't know how life will be like without him.
I don't want to lose him again.

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my heart has been captured
by your funny little smile


i don't know for sure
where this is going

6/8'09 1 Perseverance'10 Chloe. Gracelyn Shermaine Ong Shuyi

don't promise me forever
just love me day by day

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Call me maybe
(Thursday, 1 March 2012 @ 20:22)

Some times I just don't know if I do the right things or not. I can't tell from what's wrong or right. Every single wrong thing I do, will have to be accounted for to God. Well is it just me at home, or is it my sister? I really dont like being at home where they all come and suffocate me by caring too much. Sometimes I'd really prefer if people just leave me alone. I mean I've kinda grown to this state where I do not even feel like letting others care. If I had a choice, I would block every single one of them out of my life. If only I couldn't speak, things might have been simpler so that I could concentrate on the things I have to.
I'm really tired of committing to this family where all I do is negligible and yet whatever that is a mistake is so significant that even one small mistake can be blown up to such a huge matter. I don't know why you threatened me, as an older sister, but if I were to reflect on myself again, would you too? I don't feel that threatening is good but if you really have to do it, by all means do it. I'd really love to fill mum in about what's going on in my life, if she tries to forbid me from this, I'm sorry but there will not be anything she can do. Because we promised. Yes, studies first but prioritizing is really important.
Im not like this in school, definitely. Home is home, school is school. I have split personalities at different places. Maybe because in school whatever you do, you'll be able to do it freely. Yet when you're at home you're just bounded by the things parents define "right" as and the home ground rules that they set.
Am I even doing things right? Is burying myself in studies wrong or right? Is character building more important than anything else?

Don't know what's up with me but I'm just posting what I feel like. It seems very deep but whatever. Sorry for this emotive chunk of crap but I post what I like.